SUPER DUPER

hari ini tu bener2 hari super duber sibuk bin abieeeessss...
diawali dari bangun jam setengah enam dengan dikagetkan dengan kelakuan Bella(bong) yg berteriak ga jelas itu..
trus kita(bella,ak,wiw,galuh) berangkat dari rumah galuh jam stengah 7 mo lanjut ke pasar kembangnya bandungan..
setelah selesai bertransaksi,ak ma bella misah dari the other couple nie..

Tim 1 : ak ma bella -> lewat Bawen
sedangkan
Tim 2 : galuh ma wiw -> lewat banyubiru

sekitar jam 8nan ak sampe kos dan bukannya langsung mandi,
malah ol dulu,
update blog,
baru 1 jam sebelum kelas
ak berada di kamar mandi.
:)

jam 10 ak udah di angkot nie friends,
trus jam 11 masuk kelas TEFL nya c wemmy...
hohoho

krucuk krucuk
panggilan darurat di perutku membahana..
oh nooooooooooooo!! ak belum makan dr pagi....
mana kemaren malem salah pesen makanan yg super pedes...
ohhh mannnn!!!!

balik lagi ke hari ini,
habis ak kelas,
ak ke atm bank x,
ngirim transferan yg butuh buktinya buat dikirimin,
eh malah kertasnya g nongol2..
y udeh ak langsung ke mbaknya,
dibantu deh..
trus nye-can di Tiara Jaya yg unik bgt ternyata..
hehe

hbs itu ak ke lantai 5 dimana ak harus nae tangga gr2 liftnya mati..
huf huf huf...

sesampainya ku di sana,
buka laptop,
cari koneksi wifi,
kirim scan bukti transfer lwt email,
kekirim!!!
akhirnya,,,
satu tugas selesai sudah...
hohohoho

lanjut mbantuin temen2 yg pada ngrangkai bunga di kos wiw,
kerasa bgt suasana kebersamaannya,
ada mb tata,ncus,bella,kris,ak,galuh,wiw,dita,dan bintang tamu kita,"estu"..
hehehe

unforgetable moment deh..
:)

trus habis itu RAPAT DI GEREJA PAULUS MIKI,
buat VISUALISASI KISAH SENGSARA TUHAN YESUS,
g kenal sapa2 kecuali mas indra ma dita...
besok minggu ada latihan di senjoyo...
moga2 dita ikut..
si sekar ikut lho...
hmmm,senang rasanya bisa ngajak orang lain,
gabung buat pelayanan,,
I love you My Lord, JESUS CHRIST...
:)

now,it's time to go to sleep,
cause tomorrow early morning,
I've to help my friends,USDA team,to sell some things in graduation ceremony.,.
see you again guys...

one night in Bandungan

hohoho...
spending the previous night at my friend's house, Galuh, wif Bella and Wiw.
i was numb,
Really cold there..

we watched movie, Look for a star, where andy lau acted.
it was a great and romantic people,
so meaningful and touched our hearts..
:'(

the value was :
whenever you fall in love with somebody, no matter what (s)he is,
if you do love him/her,
just catch the star (the opportunity-red).
Because it comes one and you never know when you'll get another.
No matter who you are,
when you feel terrible in loving somebody,
it means you do love him/her.

and this morning,we're going to "pasar kembang"..
hehehehe..
we bought flowers to be sold tomorrow on graduation ceremony at SWCU..
(when will I be there?? nguknguk..)

but,overall,this short holiday makes me happy and I get more spirit to pass the day...
:-)

-GOOD FRIDAY and FREE-DAY GUYS-

~ START WITH NEW PASSION ~

g ad yg begitu spesial d hari valentine taon ini
cuma ad yg terasa baru di diriku
yapp,
sebuah harapan baru yang terukir antara hati,jiwa,dan hidupku..

NEW PASSION of LIFE and LOVE

kenapa baru muncul sekarang ak jg g ngeh..
kenapa ak baru bangkit dari perpisahanku dg mr.A?
but it's the result of my effort to get a better life without a man who doesn't care to me ever for a true love..
so the big questions that hav been come up over my head is,

Is it fair for me to stay waiting a man who won't let his heart and his life to care to me?
Did he miss me like I miss him?
Has he ever loved me in true love?

So,I start to throw away memories of him in order to try to get better goals in my life.

he's not my bad memory,
he's not my burden,
not at all,
he is my history,
he is my teacher for 3 months for love,life,and religion's point of view..
even he made me sad,cry,and sometimes got angry,
he's still the good man until right now..

it doesn't mean dat I wanna back,
it's just my honest words to show dat I still respect to him..

but the point is he doesn't wanna contact me again,
so it will be the way to say what I want to say to him (if he had a time to read and want to)

Loving somebody is not about it's wrong or right,
but it's all about caring and trying the best for you and him,
both of you..
if the best is you and him become together,
so you must struggle for it..
but if it reverses,
so ending your relationship up is not a bad ones,hha?
hehe

Love won't stop when you broke up with your PACAR...
BELIEVE ME!!
You'll feel your decision is right or not,
right after you made it.
There are signs dat God gives to us for every single decision we've made..

So,let your heart find its soulmate in God's way..
IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL IN GOD
^.^

~ a regrettable thing rite now ~

penyesalanku yang ingin ku tebus dalam waktu dekat adalah ...

aktif di kegiatan katolik ...

ak benar-benar nyesel dulu jaman ak SMA ak ikut LTC ISKS tp hbs itu g aktif lg..
(what's for diy you did that??!!!now you regret it rite???!!)

yaa I regret it so much and too much...
I miss my ISKS's friends..
the bond of us,
I'd shattered that by myself!!
what stupid I was...

I felt it again when I met my friend,
some of the member of ISKS (I dunno what angkatan we were, that I remember is we joined the LTC at Regina Pacis (URSULIN) Junior High School) :)

She is Aphyn..
Deata .
and Cumi too...

I miss you guys..
miss the ISKS..

Sometimes I wanna blame my school,
which sometimes bounds the students' activity outside the intern programs..
and it affected me too..
how could it be???
IT WAS!!
I was the mass coordinator,
I was the lead of prayer's schedules everyday..
I was the lead of TAIZE's program..
so when was the time for me to have society outside my school???!
yaa I know I couldn't blame those on my school..
it was more on me..
I couldn't arrange my schedule approriately..
but I thanked to my school that had given a lot of things that built up my spiritual life..
:)

Even though it's too late to miss ISKS and my friends, also the activities,
I do wanna say,
I do miss you all..
:-*

mwuahh mwuahhh...
hehehe

:: Tidak Baik ::

Sesuatu yang berlebihan itu TIDAK BAIK !

beberapa hari ini banyak orang di sekelilingku yang menyerukan itu padaku. Bukan karena aku melakukan sesuatu yang buruk bin aneh, tapi karena aku menceritakan sebuah kisah pengalaman temanku.

whosahhhh...

hmmm,let's see wad d story :

alkisah ada seorang yang terlalu confident dengan pendiriannya tanpa ada celah negoisasi dengan sesamanya di dunia.

lalu apa yang terjadi pada orang ini?
dia hidup dengan hanya membenarkan dirinya dan menolak kebenaran orang lain.

is it right guys???
nope at all..
we live not just by my self,just yourself..
we live with other people and kinds of environments..
so is it right if we just stand to hold our own belief,religion,and life???

just be in the middle,wherever there are groups in this world,
just respect each other..
because you need to be respected to, hha?? am I right??

so..whatever yours,whatever things dat make you different with other people,
stay respect to others ..

have a wonderful life today ..

the shadow of the january

perpisahan memang menggoreskan kesedihan ,
tapi apalah artinya kesedihan itu jika kita bisa berkorban untuk orang yang kita sayang??
mengorbankan keinginan kita untuk melihatnya mengukir sejarah baru untuk hidupnya...

walaupun aku turut ikut andil bagian dalam sebuah drama kehidupan dengan keinginanku yang tak terpenuhi olehnya,
aku merasa ini yang terbaik..
membiarkan cinta ini layu sebelum berkembang..
membiarkan rasa sayang terbang mengambang..
dan membiarkan harapan tak menjadi kenyataan..

wrote : January 27,2010
23:23

resend : February 17,2010

~andaian yang menjadi kenangan~

tak seharusnya kau berpaling dariku
di saat ku harus jauh dari dirimu
karena aku masih mencintaimu
dan yakin diriku hanyalah untukmu

* apa yang kurasakan
tak seperti kenyataan
berbagi cinta selain diriku

reff: mungkinkah kembali segala rasa yang telah hilang
walau hati kecilmu masih mencintaiku
tak ingin ku bertahan meski kadang mendendam
akankah kau bahagia bila cinta tak ada untuk dirimu lagi
(Mendendam - Marcell)

Like this very much ...
hehehe

lagu kenangan sepanjang masa ...
dari zaman SMP waktu masih cintacintaan monyet ma sobat lama..
mpe sekarang yang lagi broken heart ..


selamat jalan cita cintaku ...
loved you...

tak ada status eps 2

Kulepas semua yang ku inginkan
Tak akan ku ulangi
Maafkan jika kau kusayangi
Dan bila kumenanti

Pernahkah engkau coba mengerti
Lihatlah ku disini
Mungkinkah jika aku bermimpi
Salahkah tuk menanti

reff: Takkan lelah aku menanti
Takkan hilang cintaku ini
Hingga saat kau tlah kembali
Kan kukenang di hati saja

Kau telah tinggalkan
Hati yang terdalam
Hingga tiada cinta
Yang tersisa di jiwa

(Yang Terdalam - Peterpan)

andaikan dia ada disini..
membaca posting blogku..
memahami isi hatiku..
entah respon apa yang kan dia beri..

kesimpulan dari ketidakpastian sebuah hubungan adalah rasa sakit yang ada di tempat yang salah .
karena tak ada suatu landasan yang pasti dalam hubungan yang kita jalani .

terima kasih buat semuanya mas .
maav aku harus pergi dan walaupun aku tau km pun ga rugi kalopun ak pergi jg .

thank you so muccchhhhhh ...
jan 27th,2010

FRIDAY = F R E E D A Y

hellooo .. gut mornin' everybodiehhh .. :DD
gut FRIDAY and FREE-day guys ..

starting wif my sist's net and downloading the latest update vvo my antivirus .. (hoaaammmm...LOLA)
while I'm "starting" to take a bath at 8.30 (take my toothpaste,rinse,soap,towel- then facebooking and googling - short messaging - surfing again - and finally I go to my bathroom. wkwkwk)

oh nooo!!!
I did it again!
I look my mirror and it says, " You're still the most beautiful princess"
hahahaha.....

KRINGGGGGGGGGG!!!
CALL 911!!
I'm hungry!!!
emergency service comes!!!
my sist invites me to have breakfast togethaaaaaaaaa'...
hehehehehehe...

now,I'm preparing to go home!!!
SOLOOOOOO,I'M CUMINNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGG!!!
hope my wish -my lawyers' wishes and all good people who support my family's problem- come T R U E . . . . . .
hope there's a transaction between my house's buyer and me...

ameeennnn !!!

-okeeeelahhh kalooooooo begggggggituuuu-
see u again on MONDAY-MOODday-yaaaaaaaa....
hehehehe

HAVE A NICE WEEKEND GUYS..
hope I have interesting stories on my weekend..
see yaaaaaaaaaaa...
:)

tak ada status eps 1

jika ada orang yang menanti sebuah kepastian dari sang pujaan hati..
itu aku..
jika ada orang yang berada di suatu hubungan tanpa status..
itu aku..
dan jika ada orang yang sedang bimbang tentang harapannya terhadap pujaan hati untuk meresmikan hubungan mereka..



itupun aku..

mungkin aku masih begitu "hijau" di dunia percintaan orang dewasa..
di dunia cinta yang makin membingungkan..
ato aku yang membuatnya??

setiap perempuan punya impian suatu hubungan yang indah dari pertemuan hingga terjadinya suatu peresmian hubungan..

begitu pula diriku..
menginginkan hubunganku dengan si dia berstatus..


tapi cuma 1 kata tanya yang bisa mewakili pergumulan hatiku..
K E N A P A ? ?

...to be continued...